Thursday, January 8, 2009

It's 2009. Naah, it's not at all fine.

Every New Year has been the same for me. Nothing unusual at all. But this time, the beginning of 2009 itself, has brought me a zillion questions. For which I have to find an answer.

Why is it that when you get really close to a person, it’s only then you realize you shouldn’t be close to them and remain detached for your own good? But then, it’s too late to go back. And you think everything happening is wrong, when it actually feels right when you do it.

Resolution: Be less emotional and don’t think too much.

When will I ever make up my mind about what I want to do in life? I’m studying law, in my 6th semester, and I’ve got only 4 semesters more and then I’m blessed with a B.A.L.L.B degree(That is, if I don’t flunk. This semester is scaring me. Company Law, Transfer of Property, Family Law. Damn, I’m already getting goosebumps.) I have to study well and get a good G.P.A this semester otherwise I’m screwed. Also, I have to make up my mind whether I should pursue law or journalism or anything else.

Resolution: Will decide my career by June 2009 and will study well and not waste time over unnecessary things and people.

Why have I wasted 19 years in screwing my own life and despite knowing it, not doing anything about it? My parents slog their ass off just for my sister’s and my future. My sister is giving it back by getting good results and hell; she’s also working part time now. My immaturity and carefree attitude resulted in more pain for my parents and sister.

Resolution: Will grow up and become serious and not take things lightly.

That doesn’t mean I will stop having fun. :-P I guess I should maintain a balance between the two. 2.5 years left before my college ends and I am not going to waste a minute of them.
Also, will stop abusing. Okay, rather, cut down on the abuses. Will continue cheering for Team India and praying for Rahul Dravid. Will pray Deepika and Ranbir don’t get married.

On a serious note, I know resolutions are meant to be broken, but I have to stick to them, if I need to mend my ways especially when I’m going to turn 20. Which means I’m a big, big girl now.
P.S- This was so unlike a usual Mads post, but had to speak my mind. :-P

52 comments:

Sarath said...

best of luck for your resolutions... in the middle i thought u became a little too serious,

Mads said...

@ sarath :P thanks.yeah.it's meant to be serious :|

Mads said...

@ sarath :P thanks.yeah.it's meant to be serious :|

Trinaa said...

at the end of 2009 i want to be able to say that i didnt break any of my resolutions..so i wont make any at all. :P

n ur turning 20?? ur younger to me too? daaaaaamn..

abhishek said...

yep!! so unlike mads...best of luck with your resolutions(btw the three of them sounded the same to me :P)
May I ask which law college?

C-# ! T W @ !\! said...

well new yr is just an excuse to think deep..u wer growing up already..good that u r firm and concrete about the areas u want 2 grow in :)

Mads said...

@trinaa lol :P :P

Mads said...

@abhishek. all 3 sounded same coz all 3 were equally serious kya?? :O

im in gujarat national law university.blush blush. :P

Mads said...

@chitwan.great to hear praises that im growing up from u,my worst critic :"> :) thanks :D

peter said...

1. Resolution: Be less emotional and don’t think too much...

#don't be an emotional fool just be emotional ..u rock that way ..and u can be logical and madzical at the same time so chill ...!!!

2. Resolution: Will decide my career by June 2009 and will study well and not waste time over unnecessary things and people.

# great.. see i told u, u can think about yourself better than anyone else. and if that unecessary list of ppl includes me too then u r getting a hard slap :P :P

3. Resolution: Will grow up and become serious and not take things lightly.

# Take things lightly but positively and carefully ..(do u understand the diffrnc ?)

P.S : okay 2009 will be fyn jus let the good time come and no none of ur frnd is going to ditch u in september :D

Nidhi said...

we come close to someone cuz we like it, they care. whts life if we dont have ppl who would add up smile on our face. whts use of a life which is like 9 am in office and 7 pm back home eat sleep and go to wrk next day.. whts life whn there is no fun.. no mads mafik post??
life is short, live every sec. do things tht makes u happy and tht makes ur family proud too.
it is said 'nth last forever. So live it up~~ laugh it off~~ take chances and never regret. coz at one point, evrything u did was exactly wht u wanted'

Huggsssss

Abhinav said...

My only 1 resolution: NO RESOLUTIONS from now on...! hehe..

all the best for ur resolutions

Mads said...

@peter. hehe :P thanks for that :P

Mads said...

@ nidhi...i always lived my life that way and never throught about the consequences...i'll continue doing that, but will think more wisely henceforth
as far as meeting people n getting close to them is concerned,i get too emotionally attached and when those people betray me, it hurts way too much.so i prefer not being that emotional.
:P hugs to u too >:D< tune hugs wala smiley nahi kiya :((

Mads said...

@abhinav :P thanks :P

Nidhi said...

i dont knw all smileys x(

Sam said...

live a bindas life, forget resolutions, live for urself n expect less :)

Mahul Bhattacharya said...

Only a very few lucky bums really know what they want to do with their lives, trust me. It isn't what I say, rather it's what Steve Jobs says.

Nice resolutions, btw!

MultiMenon said...

Tbe whole thing about realising ur mistakes means ur on the riught track.Now,on realising all the resolutions,believe me,its hard to change all of a sudden from the system u are in.But it does hpn gradually..

I somehow felt them really cute,the thing abt ur parents(second one)..way to go gal... :) but then,bein a lot more serious,I really dun wanna see the serious Madhuri yaar.Its nice bein urself,fun or serious and thts the way it shudb..

take care..

Nikhil

mayz said...

**Why is it that when you get really close to a person, it’s only then you realize you shouldn’t be close to them and remain detached for your own good? But then, it’s too late to go back. And you think everything happening is wrong, when it actually feels right when you do it.

that is soooooooooo me!!!! but m not emotional...jus a lil weak to hurt ppl by lettin em go...i screw u my own life...big time!!!

Anurag said...

Hope u stick to it lol...We all tend to break it ...hv u tried to not make resolutions any year :P ???

Mads said...

@sam :D well put :P will try to stick to that :-ss

Mads said...

@mahul...thanks..and really nice quote there :D steve jobs can afford to say that :P

Mads said...

@multimenon. i just wrote down what i felt like...thought i needed some changes in myself :P lets see now..thanks for the comment :D

Mads said...

@mayz :P dont u hate when that happens :P thats why i think i need to change... :(

Mads said...

@anurag... :P even i hope i stick to them this year lol :P

Urv said...

U had me in splits for the Deepika n Ranbir one :) :D

I have always been fascinated by Law..

I never thought that a time would come when we will have to pray for Rahul Dravid :( :(

Mads said...

@ Urv.. im still fascinated by law since i cant get a hold over it :P :(
and yeah@the Rahul Dravid comment... :( :((

alex paul k said...

I guess its a good way 2 let your resolutions out in public so dat u r answerable 2 sum1 at d end f d yr

GOOD LUCK !!!

Ria said...

some gr8 resolutions there!do let us knw as and when u achieve them. :) All the best!!

pseudo intellectual said...

what's the point of resolutions, i wonder sometimes. still, good luck with'em. just don't be too hard on yourself :)

Alexxandro Ramadoss Ranganathan said...

Uhh... what's a resolution? Nothing more than a repeated attempted at something that is viewed as a problem. RE-SOLUTION. Repeated attempted at the same solution.

So why start 2009 Jan 01? Any good day should be fine since its nothing more than a repeat on an existing solution?

Methinks me has 'bhashaned' enough...

Bhootnath said...

< YAAWN >

I resolve to get a Blogger account .... < YAAAWN >

Mads said...

@alex...yeah u got a point there.. :) thanks,i need all the luck in d world :P

Mads said...

@Ria..thanks a lot for that :) ya will let u all know if im successful :P really hope i make it...

Mads said...

@pseudo intellectual..even i always wondered its no use making resolutinons if u cant keep them

but then again, i need to get discipline in my life before steam runs out :-| :(

Mads said...

@alexxandro..i agree with u on that.a very good point there..and well, better late than never. new year makes u think abt improving urself and makes u ponder over wat went wrong in the previous year...so thats why these resolutions....

bhaashan was worth it, me thinks :P

Mads said...

@Bhootnath... < yawn > < yawn > (since yawns are contagious)
then wats stopping u from making one? how abt making a resolution that u will make a blogger account this year? :D :P

Harshita said...

Pagli Mads,
ah! teach me to be THAT... I mean less emotional and think less... damn! we women are cursed with the thinking-mind.

and for your resolutions... well thinking abt one's career is good enuff... but DONT U TOP BEING FUNNY AND BINDAAS or I will serve u a notice...hahaha

Preetham Parvathichaami said...

Love the blog... just came back to read the comments, feedback and thoughts again.
Irrespective of age and geography, this blog strikes a chord. Something that is increasingly rarer in a world of information overload!

Mads said...

@harshita...hehe i know, women are made like that :-((
nooooo i wont stop being funny or bindass :P :D :D :P

Mads said...

@preetham...thanks a lot for the encouraging comment.keep visiting and commenting.although,im not sure if i'll see this same name again when you comment next :P

Preetham Parvathichaami said...

For your site Mads, the name will reappear. That in itself is a first.. but the comments are for real. Great blog. Love the thoughts, the insight and the Madzness!

vanilla sky said...

yes, life is not all haha hee hee :(
At least , thinking that our parents work so hard for us should make us serious at times when we need to be.

Resolutions zindabad.

Aninya said...

Being an emotional fool for one is a mistake. but i guess its a mistake that is made by 9/10. so for all you know, the person who emotionally fooled you is a bigger emotional fuckwit himself/herself!!
for the other resolutions, im no person to even say STICK TO THEM..cause im one trying to stick to my own :P
but yes...balance...PRIORITISE....have fun :D...and 2009 will not be that bad :D
P.S: 20 sounds old...buddi :P...gawd im such a freak considering self will be turning **that odd number** too this year :P

Mads said...

@ Preetham. thanks for that :D Hope to carry on entertaining u :)

Mads said...

@vanilla sky..yeah thats so true....!! resolutions zindabad seriously...

Mads said...

@aninya..lol..we all hv to grow up :P gah. enjoy ur last year of teenage :(
emotional fuckwit? seems like u'v been reading bridget jones :P :P hehe..and ur right abt that..good luck for ur resolutions too... :D :D

HP said...

chill buddy..! :) and enjoy!

i hope your resolutions last longer than ameron batteries. They las lon. really long. ting tong!

Mads said...

@ HP lol :P :P thanks a lot :D :D even i hope so :P

Aninya said...

i lurrrrveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee briidget :D

Mads said...

me too me too :D :D :D and shaz rocks!! i love her emotional fuckwit speeches... :D