Every New Year has been the same for me. Nothing unusual at all. But this time, the beginning of 2009 itself, has brought me a zillion questions. For which I have to find an answer.
Why is it that when you get really close to a person, it’s only then you realize you shouldn’t be close to them and remain detached for your own good? But then, it’s too late to go back. And you think everything happening is wrong, when it actually feels right when you do it.
Resolution: Be less emotional and don’t think too much.
When will I ever make up my mind about what I want to do in life? I’m studying law, in my 6th semester, and I’ve got only 4 semesters more and then I’m blessed with a B.A.L.L.B degree(That is, if I don’t flunk. This semester is scaring me. Company Law, Transfer of Property, Family Law. Damn, I’m already getting goosebumps.) I have to study well and get a good G.P.A this semester otherwise I’m screwed. Also, I have to make up my mind whether I should pursue law or journalism or anything else.
Resolution: Will decide my career by June 2009 and will study well and not waste time over unnecessary things and people.
Why have I wasted 19 years in screwing my own life and despite knowing it, not doing anything about it? My parents slog their ass off just for my sister’s and my future. My sister is giving it back by getting good results and hell; she’s also working part time now. My immaturity and carefree attitude resulted in more pain for my parents and sister.
Resolution: Will grow up and become serious and not take things lightly.
That doesn’t mean I will stop having fun. :-P I guess I should maintain a balance between the two. 2.5 years left before my college ends and I am not going to waste a minute of them.
Also, will stop abusing. Okay, rather, cut down on the abuses. Will continue cheering for Team India and praying for Rahul Dravid. Will pray Deepika and Ranbir don’t get married.
On a serious note, I know resolutions are meant to be broken, but I have to stick to them, if I need to mend my ways especially when I’m going to turn 20. Which means I’m a big, big girl now.
P.S- This was so unlike a usual Mads post, but had to speak my mind. :-P